Is it wrong?

Is it wrong to spy from the parking lot of my daughter’s school? She’s in kindergarten and is going on a fieldtrip today. This is not her first field trip but it is different from the others. In the past she has gone to local area farms and places close to our little town. Past fieldtrips never seemed so big before. Today, the bus will take the highway into the city. The ride there will be almost an hour. The destination is bigger that other places she has visited. They are taking lunch with them and will not return until the afternoon. Today’s trip is three extra hours than her usual school time. {Me crying} My baby is growing up, Aaaaa!!!!!

Now I did, for several days, contemplate the thought of showing up somewhere on her fieldtrip and tagging along. This would be with the other two kids in tow. Then I realized it would be somewhat difficult to be inconspicuous. You know, it would be hard to hide behind a bush with the stroller and the 3 and half year old who does not have the ability to hold still. So instead of making an obstacle out of myself, I have decide to stay home drink coffee and bite my fingernails.

However, something did come over me after I dropped the three y/o off at her pre-school. I decide to swing over to the kindergarten and sit in the parking lot to watch the kiddos line up like ducklings and get on the giant yellow bus. So I sat. Then I began to text the hubby step by step while I waited. I just wanted to make sure she had her lunch with her and that she had her hood up since it’s sprinkling out. Hmm, will she be warm enough? Will she stay with her buddy? Will she eat her apple or just go straight for the cookies?

What? Are you kidding me?!?!

The bus moved!!!! I can’t see!!!!

So I drive around to get a better view. Now I’m starting to be concerned about my sanity. The hubby is now referring to me as 007. This is not normal.

Is it??

I’ve had 3 cups of coffee and 2 fingernails are gone. I can’t tell if I’m shaking from the caffeine or nerves.

This is going to be a very long day.
As I sit here with butterflies in my stomach and a lump in my throat