Friday, May 1, 2009

Is it wrong?

Is it wrong to spy from the parking lot of my daughter’s school? She’s in kindergarten and is going on a fieldtrip today. This is not her first field trip but it is different from the others. In the past she has gone to local area farms and places close to our little town. Past fieldtrips never seemed so big before. Today, the bus will take the highway into the city. The ride there will be almost an hour. The destination is bigger that other places she has visited. They are taking lunch with them and will not return until the afternoon. Today’s trip is three extra hours than her usual school time. {Me crying} My baby is growing up, Aaaaa!!!!!

Now I did, for several days, contemplate the thought of showing up somewhere on her fieldtrip and tagging along. This would be with the other two kids in tow. Then I realized it would be somewhat difficult to be inconspicuous. You know, it would be hard to hide behind a bush with the stroller and the 3 and half year old who does not have the ability to hold still. So instead of making an obstacle out of myself, I have decide to stay home drink coffee and bite my fingernails.

However, something did come over me after I dropped the three y/o off at her pre-school. I decide to swing over to the kindergarten and sit in the parking lot to watch the kiddos line up like ducklings and get on the giant yellow bus. So I sat. Then I began to text the hubby step by step while I waited. I just wanted to make sure she had her lunch with her and that she had her hood up since it’s sprinkling out. Hmm, will she be warm enough? Will she stay with her buddy? Will she eat her apple or just go straight for the cookies?

What? Are you kidding me?!?!

The bus moved!!!! I can’t see!!!!

So I drive around to get a better view. Now I’m starting to be concerned about my sanity. The hubby is now referring to me as 007. This is not normal.

Is it??

I’ve had 3 cups of coffee and 2 fingernails are gone. I can’t tell if I’m shaking from the caffeine or nerves.

This is going to be a very long day.
As I sit here with butterflies in my stomach and a lump in my throat

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

All of your feelings are so normal Mama! And to make matters worse, these kind of feelings only get stronger as they grow older and get to experience more field trips and possibly overseas experiences. There are no words, or pills, or any amount of coffee that will calm your anxieties. Afterall, this is your BABY......and you will never stop worrying about her safety, or if she is warm enough, or if she will eat her cookies before she eats her apple slices. Be strong, and try not to be too much of a 007.
Love from a Mom and Mimi who worries about her little ones every day! XOXOXOXOXO

Debbie said...

I have done the same thing before! It is hard not to.

Elaine at Lipstickdaily said...

Awwww . . . I feel for you. But you'll feel MUCH better when she gets home and tells you what an awesome time she had and how she felt so grown up AND MOSTLY how she's soooooo happy to be back home with mama!

Yaya said...

I woulda done the same thing!

Elaine at Lipstickdaily said...

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Alexis AKA MOM said...

LOL you crack me up! The other day Cole had one nothing special but I so wanted to go and they said no little ones. I was heartbroken begged Rick to help me out and got the school bus gone, yup saw two cars leaving stocked them hoping they were with the field trip ... LOL. I love showing up!